(If you've never heard it or haven't heard it in a while take a minute to listen by clicking on the link above before reading on)
That song was kind of a mantra for my life during the mid-90's. I was proud to think of myself as a loser, and desired to be seen as one. I guess you could say I was driven toward loser-dom. It's funny to think back to the philosophy of my youth and to see how my mindset on life has evolved.
"I'm a driver, I'm a winner; things are gonna change I can feel it"
Over the years I have eliminated I'm a loser out of my vocabulary, I have replaced it with words of encouragement and affirmation. I have set out to undo the self-esteem battering that I brought upon myself. I have found that change is a slow but steady process. I would make amazing progress and yet one set back, one failure, or even one really stupid move; could put me back to singing...
"Soy un perdedor - I'm a loser baby, so why don't you kill me? "
Since January of 2009, I have lost 20 pounds. Now everyday that number changes, today it's 18 pounds, but I know two weeks from now it may be 22 pounds. I did not use a fancy diet, I just examined my eating and lifestyle habits and made some small but feasible changes. I have added in a minimum of 3 workouts a week and have been known to reach 6 a week. I've replaced soft drinks with water, replaced deli meat sandwiches for salads and tuna, and almost completely avoid fast food. I have not radically changed my life or my diet, but I have made changes that I know I can stick with for the long haul. If I make a mistake or have a bad weekend, I know I can get right back on track and feel better for it.
"get crazy with the cheese whiz"
So now once again I consider myself a loser baby and I'm proud of it. I know that I can lose any bad habits, negative mindsets, generational curses, or depressing influences in my life. When it comes to change, God will open the door suddenly and purpose for us to do the work gradually over an extended period of time. Sudden change is not always lasting change.
"Know what I'm sayin?"
So take it from me:
"You can't write if you can't relate"
Until next time...